After more than one week's messy life, I returned to Capital library to study. In the morning I read about 15 SC explanations, and in the afternoon I finished 20 CR questions. Although my progress was quite slow, my status was okay. At least I resumed the preparation. I plan to last this arrangement until February 14, the date I returned Taiwan. I should finish the OG 11 before departure from Beijing.
I can't help visiting SA’s blog again. His writing allures me and his story moves me. I was captured by his gay love story. From his article, I know that he works in Guo Mao, where I worked before my resignation. Now he is a famous blogger with upcoming 3 millions click rate. He deserves the popularity because of his special background, spiritual openness, and writing talent. Living not far away from his place, I wonder whether some day I can meet him or even know him.
I used to have the same thought of meeting a blogger before when I was fascinated with the blog written by Wang Xi, a strange man about my age. At that time, I still worked in Shanghai, whereas he lived in Beijing. Now I moved to Beijing, but I have lost interests in visiting his blog frequently. I guess that my interest is always changing and that a blogger's enchanting story always gets one day to be depleted.
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
I Am Homesick
I think I am not a good son. I have not called back home first for several months. Only my father phoned me first. The phone call I made first was on the middle-autumn Day. Usually the conversation in the phone call lasts only 2 to 3 minutes. The content is always trivial, such as the weather in Beijing and the question whether I had dinner.
I become homesick every time when I am frustrated. Now I am homesick again, so I guess I am in depression. At home, I can totally relax, sleeping over 8 hours a day and watching TV programs all day long. This is a repeated situation in every Chinese New Year festival. But as time goes by year after year, I begun to feel guilty to enjoy my laid-back life at home, because I begun to notice the white hairs occupying my father's and mother's hair! They no longer appear to be strong and tall for me. Now I can look at them at a higher angle, but I have never watched them carefully. And usually I am not patient of their caring questions. This is the attitude I have developed since my childhood.
I got to change my bad attitude and spend more time with my family next month when I go home. There is nothing more important than their happiness and healthiness.
I become homesick every time when I am frustrated. Now I am homesick again, so I guess I am in depression. At home, I can totally relax, sleeping over 8 hours a day and watching TV programs all day long. This is a repeated situation in every Chinese New Year festival. But as time goes by year after year, I begun to feel guilty to enjoy my laid-back life at home, because I begun to notice the white hairs occupying my father's and mother's hair! They no longer appear to be strong and tall for me. Now I can look at them at a higher angle, but I have never watched them carefully. And usually I am not patient of their caring questions. This is the attitude I have developed since my childhood.
I got to change my bad attitude and spend more time with my family next month when I go home. There is nothing more important than their happiness and healthiness.
Monday, January 29, 2007
Adventure in Longqing Gorge
I really need to breathe some fresh air outside the Beijing downtown. So I proposed Olive to go mountain-climbing on Saturday. But we eventually go to YanQing County because Josh invited us to see the ice sculpture together with him.
After lunch together, we took some time to find out the exact way to get Longqing Gorge, 90 km northwest of Beijing, and some of our friends decided not to go with us because they thought the destination was too far away. At last, only 5 persons took the Bus 919 to YanQing County about 15:00, including Josh, Laura, Henry, Olive and me. There are 919 "slow bus" and 919 "fast bus". We spent 1 and a half hours to arrive at Yan Qing, because we could only find the 919 "slow bus" in Shan He, where we started off. It costs 6RMB for each person. That's pretty cheap. But when we come back, we took the 919 " fast bus", which charged everybody 12RMB.
In Yan Qing, we have to take a private mini-van to get to Long Qing Gorge. In every bus station of travel spot, you will always get surrounded by a lot of people when you get off the vehicle. Those people overwhelm you attempting to persuade you to take their private car to the entrance of the spot. This kind of behavior is always annoying. At first, all of them offered us RMB 40, but we didn't show any interest on them. Finally one woman quoted us for 20 RMB and we accepted it. She warned us that if we wanted to return Beijing on the same day we would have to get back Yan Qin by 6:30. But we didn't take it serious because we think she just want to make some money form us and Laura think there must be some other way to get back Beijing. But we are wrong!
When we got back to Yan Qing, it was already past 19:00. The door of the bus station was closed, so we could only check the price of taxi. The taxi driver quoted RMB 200 for one car. Because we had five persons, so we would need two cars! Henry suggested that we could find a 24-hour KTV and stay there until dawn. Unfortunately, the only one KTV in Yan Qing would close at 2: 00 A.M. So we begun to find some recommedations but were rejected by many hotels. The reason is that those hotels don't have the license permitting them to recommedate foreigners. Josh was kind of upset about this situation. We all agreed that this kind of rule in China was ridiculous! Finally, we found Xia Du hotel with 60 RMB for each bed. We wanted to find an economical price for the night, because Laura would pay for all of us for the unexpected overnight. Well, thanks Laura's generosity!
After lunch together, we took some time to find out the exact way to get Longqing Gorge, 90 km northwest of Beijing, and some of our friends decided not to go with us because they thought the destination was too far away. At last, only 5 persons took the Bus 919 to YanQing County about 15:00, including Josh, Laura, Henry, Olive and me. There are 919 "slow bus" and 919 "fast bus". We spent 1 and a half hours to arrive at Yan Qing, because we could only find the 919 "slow bus" in Shan He, where we started off. It costs 6RMB for each person. That's pretty cheap. But when we come back, we took the 919 " fast bus", which charged everybody 12RMB.
In Yan Qing, we have to take a private mini-van to get to Long Qing Gorge. In every bus station of travel spot, you will always get surrounded by a lot of people when you get off the vehicle. Those people overwhelm you attempting to persuade you to take their private car to the entrance of the spot. This kind of behavior is always annoying. At first, all of them offered us RMB 40, but we didn't show any interest on them. Finally one woman quoted us for 20 RMB and we accepted it. She warned us that if we wanted to return Beijing on the same day we would have to get back Yan Qin by 6:30. But we didn't take it serious because we think she just want to make some money form us and Laura think there must be some other way to get back Beijing. But we are wrong!
When we got back to Yan Qing, it was already past 19:00. The door of the bus station was closed, so we could only check the price of taxi. The taxi driver quoted RMB 200 for one car. Because we had five persons, so we would need two cars! Henry suggested that we could find a 24-hour KTV and stay there until dawn. Unfortunately, the only one KTV in Yan Qing would close at 2: 00 A.M. So we begun to find some recommedations but were rejected by many hotels. The reason is that those hotels don't have the license permitting them to recommedate foreigners. Josh was kind of upset about this situation. We all agreed that this kind of rule in China was ridiculous! Finally, we found Xia Du hotel with 60 RMB for each bed. We wanted to find an economical price for the night, because Laura would pay for all of us for the unexpected overnight. Well, thanks Laura's generosity!
So we owned a very huge room with total 8 beds. The only problem with this room was that the heater didn't work! Otherwise, this is a prefect room because it's very clean and large.
We went to sing KTV for 3 hours because there was no other choice to go in Yan Qing. All of the coffee shop and stores close right at 20:00.
This is an unexpected journey. None of us ever thought that we would stay overnight in Yang Qin. I think that is what life is alwyas all about. We never know what is going to happen at the next moment! We have to equip ourselves to manage all kind of possibilities!
As for the scenery, I think it's just ok for me because I have seen the Harbin Ice and Snow Festival in 2003, which has a larger scale of exhibition of all kinds of fascinating ice sculptures. But for the purpose of breathing some fresh air, I think I do get what I asked for!
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Cat Proposed That I Can Move in Her Flat
Cat phoned me after participating an Ivey Case Study activity.
Before I took the exam, we phoned each other in turn. I called her on each odd date, and she called me on each even date. This was the way we developed to encourage and to monitor each other so that both of us could study hard. After the termination of my exam, we stopped doing so and only talked with each other once on the very day she took GMAT.
In the phone call, she told me what she discovered and how she felt in the activity. Before she hanged out the phone call, she said she had an embarrassing question to ask me. That is: her father and mother will go back to Jiang Xi Province soon, leaving her current flat an extra room for another person to rent and to live.
I was kind of surprised with her propose, because I have never thought that she, as a single girl, would propose me, as a single man, to move in. She promptly explained that if we live together, we can better encourage each other to prepare for GMAT and for the application of MBA programs. Besides, we can share the rent during the period I don't work. Thus, I can save a little money.
I euphemistically rejected her idea, because I prefer living alone, a life style that I don't have to care about another roommate's mood and living habits. But I do appreciate for her kindly propose. This kind of proposes reveals that she trusts me very much. How can a single boy not feel happy when he gets such a trust from another single girl?
If I would move in, who knows what might happen in the future? Under the same roof, will we develop some kind of relationship other than friends? Under the same roof, will we become enemies because of some trivial events? I don't want to make things getting complicated.
This reminds me of a story happened in my second working years. At that time, I rented in a widow's flat. She has a daughter about one or two years younger than me. Her daughter always liked to ask me to have a walk with her in the neighborhood in the evening. At first, I always went with her, but was worried about being seen because I don't want to be misunderstood. This girl has big and beautiful eyes, very beautiful, and treats me very kind. I guessed she kind of liked me. But I tried to keep some distance from her to make sure she won't get wrong idea form me.
Before I took the exam, we phoned each other in turn. I called her on each odd date, and she called me on each even date. This was the way we developed to encourage and to monitor each other so that both of us could study hard. After the termination of my exam, we stopped doing so and only talked with each other once on the very day she took GMAT.
In the phone call, she told me what she discovered and how she felt in the activity. Before she hanged out the phone call, she said she had an embarrassing question to ask me. That is: her father and mother will go back to Jiang Xi Province soon, leaving her current flat an extra room for another person to rent and to live.
I was kind of surprised with her propose, because I have never thought that she, as a single girl, would propose me, as a single man, to move in. She promptly explained that if we live together, we can better encourage each other to prepare for GMAT and for the application of MBA programs. Besides, we can share the rent during the period I don't work. Thus, I can save a little money.
I euphemistically rejected her idea, because I prefer living alone, a life style that I don't have to care about another roommate's mood and living habits. But I do appreciate for her kindly propose. This kind of proposes reveals that she trusts me very much. How can a single boy not feel happy when he gets such a trust from another single girl?
If I would move in, who knows what might happen in the future? Under the same roof, will we develop some kind of relationship other than friends? Under the same roof, will we become enemies because of some trivial events? I don't want to make things getting complicated.
This reminds me of a story happened in my second working years. At that time, I rented in a widow's flat. She has a daughter about one or two years younger than me. Her daughter always liked to ask me to have a walk with her in the neighborhood in the evening. At first, I always went with her, but was worried about being seen because I don't want to be misunderstood. This girl has big and beautiful eyes, very beautiful, and treats me very kind. I guessed she kind of liked me. But I tried to keep some distance from her to make sure she won't get wrong idea form me.
Friday, January 26, 2007
My GMAT partner
Cat sent me a text message to tell me her GMAT score this morning.
In the evening, she called me and expressed how disappointed she felt. I can tell that her voice become kind of strange. At some time, I guess she was about to sob. I can only comfort her to take it easy.
She said she might take the exam again. Well, if so, then we will study hard together again!
In the evening, she called me and expressed how disappointed she felt. I can tell that her voice become kind of strange. At some time, I guess she was about to sob. I can only comfort her to take it easy.
She said she might take the exam again. Well, if so, then we will study hard together again!
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Wednesday Blue
Feel blue today.
Doing nothing, nothing at all today. I already registered the exam yesterday, so I should study very hard now. But I've done all meaningless and trival things today.
Visited the blog of Sa. A sad story there brings me even more sorrow. It reminds me of C,a person who makes me understand what love is.
Olive is inviting me for dinner tonight. I feel kind of sorry for him. He is so kind of me, but I give him nothing.
Doing nothing, nothing at all today. I already registered the exam yesterday, so I should study very hard now. But I've done all meaningless and trival things today.
Visited the blog of Sa. A sad story there brings me even more sorrow. It reminds me of C,a person who makes me understand what love is.
Olive is inviting me for dinner tonight. I feel kind of sorry for him. He is so kind of me, but I give him nothing.
Monday, January 22, 2007
Never GIve Up
I avoid to call it a "failure", but it is indeed a failure for me.
I was considering to give up my MBA dream and thinking that I might not have the potential as a B-school student. But after two days' consideration, I found that I still can not let it go. I feel so reluctant to give it up after months' preparation. Maybe I "should" give myself one more opportunity. Or I shall say that I "must" give myself one more opportunity so that in the future I won't feel regreted that I give up in the half way.
After two day's indulgence in the Internet, I will start to return to my study for GMAT. Probably take this exam on March again. No matter how many times I might fail this exams, I decide to keep taking it untill getting a satisfying result.
I was considering to give up my MBA dream and thinking that I might not have the potential as a B-school student. But after two days' consideration, I found that I still can not let it go. I feel so reluctant to give it up after months' preparation. Maybe I "should" give myself one more opportunity. Or I shall say that I "must" give myself one more opportunity so that in the future I won't feel regreted that I give up in the half way.
After two day's indulgence in the Internet, I will start to return to my study for GMAT. Probably take this exam on March again. No matter how many times I might fail this exams, I decide to keep taking it untill getting a satisfying result.
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